Written in Stone

"Written in Stone

the mouth of Fate once uttered,
"finality is never set in stone
until a stone can be made unbroken."
the wisdom behind these worthy words
turns happiness to sadness -
sadness to happiness.
in the lingering stretch of time
Destiny and Purpose will outlive
the old and worn out soles
of the stories I write in stone.
even Fate fathoms
the uncertainty of stone.
Fate is tied to a stone; Purpose is tied to a life.

Unveiled

Trying my hand at some poetry.

"Unveiled"

I feel like crying,
Crying.
The time is moving quickly
But I cannot always feel
The strength I know I have.
The moment is quickly fading,
Fading.
Underneath the burden I feel
A flicker of the hope I once knew.
And I smile through the tears
That once blinded my vision.

Blessings

Have you ever had a song that almost described perfectly the way you were feeling at the moment? That is how this song was for me.  The past few nights I have had trouble sleeping because I am afraid and worried. I am afraid that I am not good enough and I am worried that I will get stuck in this negative way of thinking.  It is hard to recognize the good that can come from the bad when you are right in the middle of the bad.  The funny thing is, my life is great. I have a wonderful family, great friends, and a wonderful boyfriend, all whom I love very much.  But it's like Satan knows those things are my strength, so he attacks my weakness...my thoughts. And he turns them all negative.  This song has been so encouraging because it reminds me that struggling through my final semester of college and struggling with finances may just be the answer to my prayers. Scary thought, but comforting at the same time. Here are the lyrics!

"Blessings" Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights 
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights 
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

Final Semester Schedule

Well here it is, the moment we have all been waiting for...my final semester schedule!

MWF
12:00 - Spanish II
1:00 - American Literature II
2:00 - Fitness Yoga

TR
9:25 - History of the English Language
10:55 - Chapel
11:55 - Creative Writing: Poetry
6:00 - Senior Capstone

The Inevitable

Well it has turned out to be a pretty difficult day.  I have had several battles within my head and deep down I know it is satan talking, but it is still hard you know? When life begins to get stressful and when I start to feel like I am losing control, my mind immediately begins having negative thoughts. Once the negativity starts, it is almost impossible to stop it from taking over.  When I start feeling this way my first instinct is to keep it all inside and shut myself off from the people that can help the most. I can't really explain how I feel so I talk myself out of trying to explain it to others.  This kind of negative thinking in the past has resulted in me pushing people away that I was very close to.  I do not want to repeat the past so my goal for the next week or however long this lasts is to remind myself not to let go of the people that care and then to actually let those people help.

God Bless,
Hannah

Beginning of the Final Semester

So it has been several months since I have even though about my blog.  Life has been crazy and often stressful but I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.  It is weird to think that my time at Lipscomb University will soon be coming to an end.  I never thought my college years would go by as quickly as they have.  Looking back over the three and a half years I can see how my life has changed and how I have 'grown up' in many ways.  I have learned that not all of your 'friends' are really your friends but I have also learned to appreciate and cherish the ones who stayed by my side through all the ups and downs.  I have learned the importance of prioritizing and studying and how they really do help after all (who would have thought)! I understand the difference between college life and college. Actually going to class and paying attention actually pays off in the long run. Befriending the teachers and spending time listening to their words of wisdom can be one of the most beneficial things you do your entire college career.  My last two years I have really had to learn how to balance my social life with my academic life. For me it seemed easier to just bury myself in my schoolwork, but I soon realized that if my friends were important to me, I had to make time for them.  College is about learning how to make time for the things you want to do and the things you need to do and being able to recognize the difference.

I'm not quite sure what I will do in this next stage of my life.  College is definitely not the real world and, to be honest, I am a bit timid of the real world. I know that ten years from now this point in my life will not seem at all significant and I may even laugh at myself.  I really do feel like things are about to change drastically and to quote one of my favorite tv shows "If there is a feeling of being half totally excited and half completely ready to panic, then that's how I feel". So now all I have to say is...Bring on the final semester!!!

God Bless